One of our greatest gifts~ A lesson in gratitude and abundance

Recently I discovered one of our greatest gifts as spirits is that our ability to generate ideas and tap into the source of all knowledge is infinite. Looking back over the years I am saddened to realize the large amounts of time and energy I focused on hiding and not sharing information with others because I was worried about them “stealing” my visions, knowledge, or my ideas for themselves. I was caught up in the naive thinking that others using my ideas or information could mean a heightened sense of success for them which in turn would have to mean a loss for me.  To grow we must reject this win/lose mentality. We must grow to understand that we live in a space of great abundance, there is enough for us all, if we choose there to be.

Today I subscribe to the belief that when we hold hostage our ideas and information we do not leave room for more information to come to us. When we share guided information or our inner most powerful thoughts and ideas, it sends a wave of gratitude to the universe. The act of giving this information away shows that you have not only understood the importance of the information you were given, but you took responsibility for it as well. In sharing this information you have taken something mental and transformed it into something that now has the power to manifest here in this space into a physical reality. That is really important let’s read it again… In sharing this information you have taken something mental and transformed it into something that now has the power to manifest here in this space into a physical reality. Cool huh?

This gratitude will continue to send waves through the universe that you are ready and able to accept more information and more ideas. Thus giving you an endless supply! Think of how helpful this could be in your approach to parenting, offering good ideas at work, forming and retaining relationships and in countless other practical ways. Wouldn’t it be great to have a source of endless awesome ideas? You can have this. It is not something accessible for a “chosen” few.  You just have to be brave enough to share with others.  That’s it. That’s the trick.

Please note this does not mean that you are obligated to tell the world every time that you have thought that is guided, creative or powerful. It is also not intended to mean that you give away every good idea you have and leave nothing for yourself. It means simply to bring a new awareness into the picture, to live in a state of mindfulness. Move through this space sending out waves of gratitude and choose abundance rather than sending out signals of fear and loss. Remember you will get back exactly what you send out!

I am whole.

Feeling again like the world is growing too bright and loud. It feels like the sun is so close that it will burn my flesh and spirit. I need a reprieve from the mindless chatter and one-way-ness of this space I have created. Relationships appear to be like rivers roaring past, charging with purpose, taking the parts of me they need with them and having little care for what is left behind. I crave the solitude of silence, ancient relationships, and connecting with the earth. It is time now to move away from the public spaces of spirituality and gravitate towards a more private practice.

At times I feel it would be so much easier if my masters were of this space…of this time…of this place. At others I realize that this can never be so. The masters are of another space so that the relationship can remain pure, unending and without interruption. Looking around I have selected a space of loudness, one sidedness and ego. I have placed my spirit in a life of busy behavior that is almost false and anxiety ridden. I have no closeness with others that is sacred due to the majority of my time being filled with half-finished conversation and a need to be polite or correct.

I don’t have anything profound to say. There are no revelations coming to mind today. It’s just me…on my journey.  Standing here in my flesh and bone with my heart beating in its human rhythm. Breathing in and out in a controlled even fashion, staring into my own almond shaped eye which echoes generations before me Blackfoot and cawing to the crows, medicine men and mothers, I exhale knowing only parts of the whole but confident that I belong for I can still hear their drum and in my life and actions echoes of their song.

As my ancestors, I yield to the egos of others. I let them walk over me, through me, around me and beyond me and all the while I learn what I choose not to be. I am grateful for this behavior as it makes me stronger. No longer do I seek to be the teacher. My students will come when they are guided, just as my teacher will come when I have mastered the lessons already laid before me. I am comfortable understanding that the treasures and knowledge inside me is not for everybody, rather it is for the few who have the need and will to know. I will seek to master the lessons of the ordinary, of simplicity and I will be grateful that gone are the days that I need to have the burden of proof or validations from others. Gone are the days that I put energy into those who do not offer an even exchange.

This is part of my evolution. This is part of the whole. I am part of the whole…I am whole. I need not the approval of others nor do I need a stamp of authenticity.  I am strong because I chose to be. I will continue to grow because I choose to do so. I will stand on my own feet in my own space and I will be secure, never fearing the darkness or that which stirs just beyond it… because in my heart and soul I know that I am guided, I am protected and I am part of god.

A universe of our own

The mind is our ego. This is the filter that we see the rest of the world though. It holds most of our recallable memories and general data of our environment. It tells us what it perceives to be good or bad for us such as cautioning us when something is to hot or cold to touch. Our ego assess everything in our perception and evaluates given its experience what is good and what is bad, what we like and what we don’t like and so on. The ego can be our best friend in some situations but it can be extremely limiting in others.

The trouble with our ego is that it is very hard to turn it off. Our ego or minds whole job is to be observant and to store data so that it can make the best decisions based on this collected data to keep us safe, or to protect the body.  This is great for our bodies but it can be a trouble when we are looking to go beyond our physical being toward our higher self. Spiritual development is one place the ego can be limiting to our growth and in some cases it may cause problems with our balance.  This is why meditation is so important and recommended by those who are intuitively in touch with their higher selves, when we meditate we move beyond this ego and away from our protective self towards our spiritual god selves. Please keep in mind that there are many ways to meditate.

If we are going to learn to rely on our own channels or our own ability to reach out to the divine we must be able to learn to put the ego aside. This is why so many people do work in their dreams; while the body is asleep the ego is asleep with it. Moving beyond the ego means moving beyond the noise of our fears and offers us the ability to move beyond our extremely limited knowledge. Recall we are only the sum total of our experiences in this life. Our experiences are so limited here. It is easy to forget that we have access to so much more than our own limited experiences. It can be really difficult to learn to put our ego voices aside. We first have to become alert to how to identify our egos thought from that of our higher selves. A good rule of thumb is if we are feeling feelings or having thoughts of our physical body or having fear of taking an action because it will affect our physical body, we are filtering through the ego.  Please note that thoughts of physical body could be thoughts about money, thoughts about loss of our job or thoughts about loss of a mate. These things are most often tied to our ego just being afraid of losing its health. For example many of us do not take risks or make career decisions based on monetary decisions. We tend to not make decisions to leave our jobs or we stay with jobs that do not fit us because we are worried about losing our money which could lead to us losing our homes our shelter, which could lead to us being exposed to elements and desperate and so on.  We need to be mindful about why we are making the decisions we are making and why we are choosing the things in life that we do. If we are able to determine if we are moving from a place of ego or if we are connecting with our higher selves we will be able to tap into our infinite knowledge sources and we will be able to make more guided decisions.

Making guided decisions is something available to everyone; it is a right of being human in this human experience. We were not beings marooned or exiled to this planet by a god that is conditional. We are spiritual beings who chose to be human in this space and time and in our current condition. We get so lost in the endless chatter of our egos, which are working to protect our body that we often fail to remember that we are also higher spiritual beings who have access to universes of information already within us. We must return to a place of self-trust and comfort in our own abilities and our own relationship with the divine. This does not mean that we should never seek the council of others; it simply means that we should learn how to seek and consult with our own first!